My Mom, she tells a lot of lies

she never did before.

From now until she dies,

she'll tell a whole lot more.

Ask my Mom how she is

and because she can't explain,

She will tell a little lie

because she can't describe the pain.

Ask my Mom how is she,

She'll say "I'm alright."

If that's the truth, then tell me,

why does she cry each night?

Ask my Mom how is she,

she seems to cope so well.

She didn't have a choice you see

nor the strength to yell.

Ask my Mom how she is,

"I'm fine, I'm well, I'm coping."

For Gods sake Mom, just tell the truth

just say your heart is broken.

She'll love me all her life,

I loved her all of mine.

But if you ask her how is she

she'll lie and say she's fine.

I am here in Heaven.

I cannot hug from here.

If she lies to you don't listen,

Hug her and hold her near.

On the day we meet again,

we'll smile and I'll be bold.

I'll say, "You're lucky to get in here, Mom

with all the lies you told!"

too much time

it has been to long since i have seen your beautiful face or heard your beautiful voice i miss you so much my heart feels empty without you and the house seems all to quiet i miss your belly laughs i was inspired by you to help and to follow all children well i feel weak i feel like i cant take the pain of losing another child i care so much about i hear relapse scans growth tests and it scares me it is time for the holidays and i feel so alone i wish you were still here frankie is having a very hard time latley dealing without you how is a mom supposed to go on everyday and act like everything is ok its not your not here with me and you are not in a better place a better place would be in my arms i am tired of seeing a cute bald smiling kid as the face of childhood cancer you were the reality suffering pain hell you couldnt even smile that is my reality and so many others so now tell me how am i supposed to go on and live my life without you the pain is just to much to take people tell me how beautiful you are and were even in your passing a good friend put it to me well a child in a casket doesnt look beautiful they look cold and dead i will never ever forget that smell its all burned into my memory that i will never forget hold your kids close cuz you just never know momma loves you baby girl and have a good nap my lil buddy that just lost his battle on thanksgiving i love you mister muah
                                   natalies momma
                                    brandy

well baby girl it is September childhood cancer awareness month I thought you would be here with me this month to help be the childrens voice but you were silenced by this ugly monster so I will be your voice I will spread awareness for you and all your little friends up there it is hard to believe you have been gone for so long I miss you everyday my only hope is that people hear me and understand what this can do and in such a short time you should be starting school on tuesday but instead i will be her with a broken heart talking to the sky if you are reading this and have never suffered the loss oof a child to cancer or any other reason please never push your kids away when they ask you for one more hug or one more kiss goodnight what I would give for just one more love you baby girl    love brandy (angel natalies momma)

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one year ago today we took you to the hospital had a ct scan done and found out you had a mass in your brain stem then off to childrens we went so so sad baby not even a year i miss you so much i cant even begin to explain the heartache this just isnt fair i love you so much and think of you everyday until we meet again sweet baby hugs and kisses mommy loves you